Soul Searching

Soul Searching
 
Soul searching the path
Searching to where it asks
Working its way to Mary
And swerving to find Italy
 
How can it be? How can it be?
Why not choose me?
Waiting but not working
My way to the locality
 
Where can it be? Where can it be?
The place where my heart should be
He said never go back to east
Just go forward to west
 
Where am I? Where am I?
I’m not planning to die.
I just stand staring at faces
Watching passersby walking in fast paces
 
Why not go round and round?
Until I can’t be found
Am I just running?
Or is it escaping?
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My say on Typhoon Haiyan

A month has passed when Typhoon Yolanda/ Typhoon Haiyan struck the central part of the Philippines and the provinces in Visayas were completely devastated leaving the people helpless. Lives lost. Houses completely obliterated. Missing loved ones. No food. No water. No electricity. They’ve got nothing but faith and hope and the whole world felt the sense of yearning philanthropy thus, each and every one tries their best to contribute something and give aid to those in need.

We were focused with the current events and every single day their reports were about the updates on how the people were doing. They were tracking how the government responded on the tragic losses of the people in Visayas. It was sad to hear that despite with what happened, there are still people who take advantage of this devastation, and focus on their personal desires. Some blame the government for their slow response while the president blames the local government, who is also affected by the typhoon. It’s depressing that despite all what’s happened they get to blame each other where in fact they should just give help and encourage everyone to stay strong.

Each and every one find ways on how to help, how to contribute and how to alleviate the sadness and losses of the people. From singers, actors, artists and even regular people who work their asses somewhere out there, still wanted to give help and were struck by the disheartening effect of the typhoon. It’s just sad that SOME from the Philippine government doesn’t give what those people, who were affected, deserve. From what happened, I found hope in our humanity that we still care for each other no matter what. Let’s continue giving and spreading love to each other especially that Christmas is coming. Let’s make every day Christmas time.

 

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Day 7: Easy A

I don’t really know what’s with my obsession with the “Easy A” movie but I have watched it for like the nth time and I can even watch it every single day without vomiting. I mean, really! It was perfection! I bow down to the writers and the director of this movie and especially to Emma Stone who was able to portray perfectly the character of Olive Penderghast. And I will admit from the chosen music to the witty remarks it was totally alluring and entertaining. I love it. I love it. I love it. (A million times) And I totally pity the people who still haven’t watched it. Anyways, I have enlisted (in fact I watched it and rewind it again) my favorite lines and convos of the different characters and I have also inserted a trailer of the movie. If anyone who’s reading this still hasn’t watched it, please please please, I’m begging you, watch it!!! It was the best movie ever!

Favorite lines: 
 
If Google earth were a guy he couldn’t find me if I was dressed up in a ten story building.
 
George is not a sexy name. George is like what you name your teddy bear not the name you wanna scream when you’re in a climax.
 
Olive: I’m not that kinda girl
Rhi: Oh really! The kinda doesn’t or the kinda does it and doesn’t have the lady balls to tell her best friend
 
Mary Ann: Listen, I’m not the one that you have to answer to for your depraved behaviour. There’s a higher power that will judge for your indecency.
Olive: Tom Cruise?
 
Olive: You guys know that I was here all weekend right?
Mom: Yes, you were upstairs.
Dad: yeah
Olive: You would testify to that?
Mom: Yeah
Dad: I would take a bullet for you, you know that. Right between the eyes and I would slit my throat rather than say something to someone that you didn’t want me to say.
Olive: That’s not necessary dad, but that is comforting
Dad: That’s how I am. That’s how I roll. That’s how I do.
 
Remember how I told you Google Earth couldn’t find me if I was dressed up as a ten story building? Well the next day, it could find me if I was dressed in a crack on a sidewalk. That’s the beauty of being a girl in high school. People hear you had sex once and BAM you’re a bimbo. I really didn’t mean for the light to put me in the map but I gotta admit I kinda like being in a map.
 
Nina: Perhaps you should embroider a red A on your wardrobe you abominable tramp.
Olive: Perhaps you should get a wardrobe you abominable twat!
 
Mary Ann: Seems as if someone’s on a downward spiral.
Olive: Seems as if someone’s practicing the mundane activity should be settle with the rest of our pathetic life
Mary Anne: I just hope for your sake you at least had the good sense to use protection
Olive: Why? Your parents didn’t.
Mary Ann: You’re going to hell
Olive: Just as long as you won’t be there.
Mary Ann: I can assure you, I won’t.
 
Olive: I got sent to the principal today.
Mom: Did you win a medal or something?
Olive: Not exactly. I used inappropriate language in English class. Although we’re reading a book that I personally deemed wildly inappropriate for our age group…
Mom: What did you say?
Olive: Let’s just say it was inappropriate word.
Dad: What did it start with?
Olive: A snide comment from a snotty girl in our class.
Dad: No. I mean what letter did it start with?
Olive: Oh, T.
Dad and Mom: Oh T.. T. T. T. T. T. T.
 
Brandon: Hi. Is there an Olive here?
Mom: There’s a whole jar of them in the fridge.
Brandon: Sorry. I must’ve the wrong address.
Mom: Oh just kidding com’on in. Any friend of Olive’s is a friend of our daughter. Olive sweety, there’s a young man here to see you. He said something about asking for your hand in marriage.
Olive: Oh, happy day, Momma! Oh I thought I was gonna have to spend my diary on booze and pills tonight on loneliness….
Dad: What’s that?
Mom: Olive has a boy in her room.
Dad: A boy?
Mom: A boy.
Dad: Wow. A boy?
Mom: A boy.
Dad: A boy?
Mom: A boy.
Dad: Wow.
 
Olive: I hope you don’t mind but we had a few pre-cocktail party cocktails like before the cocktail parties with cocktails.
Melody Bosticks: Mhm.
Olive: Listen, here’s the sitch Melody Bostick. Brandon was just in the middle of telling me really funny thing which is really funny and I was wondering if umm.. there’s like a room we could go where he could finish telling me that thing that’s funny if you know what I mean.
 
Brandon: What are you doing?
Olive: Relax! Jesus, what is with you gays? Are you, are you really that repulsed by lady parts? What do you think I have down there? A gnome?
 
Brandon: Did you smell that?
Olive: Ew. Ew. Ew..
Brandon: What does it suppose to smell?
Olive: I don’t know but if it does you’re not suppose to comment on it.
Brandon: It doesn’t really smell that bad.
 
Mom: That boy from yesterday just dropped this off for you.
Olive: Well put it in the pile of gifts from my other suitors.
 
Olive: Hey Hanson.
Hanson: Hey.
Olive: I just realized the funniest thing my name is an anagram for “I love”.
Hanson: What’s uhh.. What’s an anagram?
Olive: Look it up big boy.
 
Olive to Rhi: What’s your problem?
Rhi: You really wanna know my problem is?
Olive: No… That’s a rhetorical question. I don’t wanna know anything from you.
Rhi: We’re not friends anymore.
Olive: Oh.
Rhi: We are officially over.
Olive: Oh rat.
Rhi: Hey I want my juicy swasher back.
Olive: Oooooohh.. Buuuuurrrnnn…
 
Whatever happened to chivalry? Does it only exist in 80s movies? I want John Cusack holding a boom box outside my window. I wanna ride off a lawn mower with Patrick Dempsey. I want Jake from Sixteen Candles waiting outside the church for me. I want Judd Nelson thrusting his fist into the air cause he knows he got me just once I want my life to be like an 80s movie, preferably, one with a really awesome musical number for no apparent reason….
 
Mr. Griffith: I’m making spaghetti.
Mrs. Griffith: That’s great.
Mr. Griffith: With meat.
Mrs. Griffith: Enjoy eating your meat.
Mr. Griffith: And balls.
Mrs. Griffith: Enjoy eating your balls.
 
 

Day 6: Quotes I can relate to (Part 1)

I am so inspired to read from a lot of books recently and I have gathered some of my favorite quotes from different characters of the novels I’ve read.

1. “The trick of it, she told herself, is to be courageous and bold and make a difference. Not change the world exactly, just the bit around you. Go out there with your double-first, your passion and your new Smith Corona electric typewriter and work hard at… something. Change lives through art maybe. Write beautifully. Cherish your friends, stay true to your principles, live passionately and fully and well. Experience new things. Love and be loved if at all possible. Eat sensibly. Stuff like that.”- Emma Morley, One Day by David Nicholls

2. “Ones character is set at an early age, son. The choices you make now will affect you for the rest of your life.” — Chester “Chet” Duncan, Flipped by Wendelin Van Draanen

3. “Without pain, how could we know joy?” — The Fault in Our Stars by John Green

Day 5: Brace off

At last! I get to say goodbye to my braces. For almost 7 years, I have been waiting for this moment… this moment to experience the comfort of bracelessness. It was not really a burden but of course the excitement to experience the outcome of adjustments in your teeth is commendable, right?

My first reaction when my dentist removed it was excitement then suddenly… disappointment. I felt like my teeth were gone! Then I was very conscious with the feeling of no braces. It was a mixed feeling of relief and teethlessness. 😛

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Hooray! ❤ ❤ ❤

Run Chicken Run

I would like to share this peculiar event which happened when I was a kid.

Since I grew up in Saudi Arabia, I was lucky to live in a compound. I remembered when I was around 9 or 10 years old, our compound which is situated inside our compound (so it’s like a compound inside a compound) has two buildings adjacent to each other and all of the rooms are occupied by the employees of the company (where my dad works of course). The land where these two buildings were situated is very wide that maybe two other buildings can be built. So anyway, since we got a wide land, the guy (let’s call him Mr. B since I cannot really remember his name) living across our room tried to raise a farm not quite far from our building. He planted some tomatoes, eggplants and even some green vegetables. It was pretty cool actually. His farm became bigger and bigger that it was a total success. Sometimes, we help him harvest some of the tomatoes and eggplants and sometimes, we try to visit his house of birds. Yep! He is raising chickens and pigeons but mostly the chickens are on the loose while the pigeons are the ones tucked inside the house of birds.

One day, I was just walking around thinking what to do so I came up with the idea of visiting the farm. Mr. B was watering the plants and feeding the birds and when he saw me coming, he smiled and greeted me. We had this little chit-chat and then he mentioned that the chickens sometimes chase after someone. I laughed so hard and told him it’s rubbish since as far as I know chickens are harmless. He was smiling and told me that he’s not joking at all and I was like: “Really huh?!” and I continued laughing then suddenly a chicken came near me and it seems that it was getting ready to run. Mr. B suddenly said, “RUN!!!” and suddenly the chicken ran and my impulsiveness kicked in that I just ran too. I tried to look back to check if it stopped but unfortunately it didn’t! My mind was racing that I can’t decide where to go and how to stop the chicken. I ran at the back of our building and even at the back of the other building trying to divert the attention of the chicken but no it did not stop. Not even once. I passed by the farm and got a glimpse of Mr. B, who is laughing so hard! I was screaming at him asking him how to stop the chicken and he shouted that he has no idea. I was running out of breath and I’ve got an idea which I think was my only hope in stopping the chicken. I remembered that the door in our building was sometimes open and so I prayed that the door is wide open waiting for me. I ran and ran and when I got to the doorway, I wasn’t able to close the door but when I got to the first 10 steps (I think) of the stairs, I looked back to check if the chicken tried to fly and follow me but thank God it stopped. It was staring at me like it’s gonna eat me! God! It totally freaked me out so I continued going up to our apartment and never look back. I guess, I still got more brain cells than the chicken. Whenever I think back about it, I just laugh it off.

Book/Movie Review: Flipped

Flipped

Title: Flipped

Author: Wendelin Van Draanen

Date Published: October 1, 2001

Rating: 5/5

If I’ve known that this movie has a book, I would’ve read it first before watching it. As I was searching in our hard drive media player for something to watch, out of boredom, my curiosity kicked in. I never had any idea what the movie is all about so I didn’t expect anything from it. I never expected that I would enjoy it. It doesn’t matter if you read the book first or watch the movie first since it’s pretty much the same (mostly). After I watched the movie, I immediately searched for the book and that’s the impact of a good story to a bookworm who is a child at heart.

Wendelin Van Draanen has embodied the different perception of a boy and a girl toward each other’s actions and words. The story is about the evolution of a childhood misunderstanding and ironically the development of the relationship between Julianna Baker and Bryce Loski. It was separately recounted in the views of both the protagonists and although Juli and Bryce are pre-teens, she demonstrated the representation of every girl’s feelings to a boy and vice versa. The differences and the complication of the interaction of these two species were explicitly expressed even in their early years. Their families were also involved with their dealings and thus have highly influenced their perspective between each other, especially the Loski family.

This novel is suitable to all ages and I believe that her aims of audiences are the children and young adults, but anyone who is a child at heart would totally enjoy this novel. Every chapter made me laugh too much and through-out the moment I was reading this, it always makes my day.

I think that this book, as well as, the movie deserves more credit. Although I should say that the production of the movie is not extravagantly made compared with the other Rom-Com movies, I believe that although the story-line is light and simple, it is very entertaining and family oriented. It’s not as complicated as to the other stories we watch or encounter since it’s a simple story which would make every reader and viewer smile, laugh and giggle every once in a while and recap your childhood all over again.

365 Days of Whateverness

Dear All,

Happy December and Christmas is just around the corner! 😀 😀 😀

I’m hoping that the blogosphere hasn’t erased me in its memory. A lot has happened over the months and I wanna punish myself for being a lazy brat! Since I’ve been gone for months and have lost my job just recently, I want to devote myself in creating something out of my ordinary life thus; since I was inspired to my friend, Arra Abella, who is making a daily post despite her busyness especially nowadays, I am going to make my 365 DAYS OF WHATEVERNESS starting today.

The aim of this challenge is for self-improvement especially in blogging, generating great ideas and sharing events and experiences to every one who cares to read my blog. I’m not pushing but just saying. 🙂 Anyway, I would be posting anything which makes me smile, laugh, cry or whichever my heart desires to share. Just a warning, it might contain, book reviews (since I love reading books but sucks at writing so I better just read), some random pictures and some ideas which just pops my head especially before I sleep.

I know it will not be easy but I will try my best to conform and post everyday the updates and moments happening in my life. I’ve been planning to do this since a couple of months ago but since I’m the best procrastinator on earth I have been ditching the idea many times but after some realizations, I am willing to make a change… for the better and I’m hoping you’ll be joining my journey to improvement and dedication to this project. I hope I can make it. Wish me luck!

Love,

Marion

Dream on

I am a dreamer and I think you all know that. I have a dream. Yes, I do and I know everyone does, but I won’t tell because it might be jinxed. Yesterday, from the moment I opened my eyes, until I got to work, until I got home and ate dinner and before I slept all I did was daydream about me and my life. What I wanna do, what my parents want me to do, and what my parents and I wanted to do with my life. It was like an MTV playing in my mind with the music playing in the car or in my earphones.

It just seems real especially before I sleep. At this very moment, I wanna do it. I wanna do what I wanna do but I’m helpless, I’m weak and I’m scared. I’m a coward and I know that. If I could just quit my job, go back to where I belong and get the most amazing job I could imagine and get a house of my own and get something I wanna wear for the day, I’d be happy. It’s not as simple as 1, 2, 3 or A, B, C. I’m looking for that courageous part of me still floating in the air waiting to be called. I know I can call it anytime but I’m still waiting for that right moment. When is that right moment? I. Don’t. Know.

I wanna be free! I wanna embrace the realities of life but at the same time, I don’t want to leave the fantasies lurking with it. When I’m in a good mood, I feel bold, confident and waiting to be wild but it just won’t get there. Sometimes I feel like being a bitch but I can’t. I wanna lose it in my system, these goody-two-shoes attitude which gets me nowhere, but like what I’ve said, I just can’t.

At the end of the day, whatever happened throughout my day, I try to forget and I move on and, again, I dream on.

Farewell, Ali!

This one’s for you Ali! When I found out about what happened, I relived those memories with you and I realized those moments were few but I won’t fret because although, most of it are coincidental meet-ups, I believe those were happy moments.

For those few years I’ve known you, you were the easy-going, jolly and very positive type of person and I admire you for that. Who would ever forget a person like you who always smiles? I never knew your condition until now that you’re gone, since you never told me.

Did you remember that moment when we coincidentally met at NAIA never knowing we have the same flight to Jeddah? I’m grateful you were with me during that flight because it was one of our bonding moments. You offered the seat beside you and I told you that if no one will be seating there I’d be your seatmate… we’re lucky.

Did you remember that before we left Manila, you looked so normal, but when we arrived Jeddah you were bloated? I will never forget the moment when you showed me your feet puffed up like a balloon and I was so shocked! You can’t wear your sneakers properly and you have to adjust the ties but you were smiling and laughing because of my reaction. I never knew your condition, Ali but why didn’t you tell me? We had 10 hours to talk about it but you never did. I guess, we weren’t really that close.

After that year I found out you stopped going to school because of your condition and I’m still oblivious as to what’s going on but it never bothered me. I just know that you were on dialysis and that’s it. I thought you’d be fine because you seem to be.

I’m sorry for nagging you about my Chang book but you can’t blame me, I love that Chemistry book! LOL. I remember the moments when we coincidentally come upon each other in UST grounds, you were always smiling from afar and when you approach me, you would tickle me.

I know our moments were few but it’s memorable. Did you remember our last bonding moment? It was crystal clear in

Our last photo together

Our last photo together

my mind. My friends and I were waiting for Ian Somerhalder to show up at Mall of Asia, there were lots of people waiting (mostly girls, you know it!) with us. While waiting, I just turned my head to the right and there you were with your brothers. You were holding that broad smile and I was surprised again. I thought after we see Ian, we would take apart but I never expected you and your brothers would be staying with us. We ate lunch together. Did you remember you were my partner when we played billiards? We won! I was so caught up I never thought that day would end.

You know what, I believe that everything happens for a reason and I am grateful that I saw you that day, that I met your cool brothers, that we made memories before I leave for Jeddah, but I am sad because I never thought it would be our last bonding moment. It will never happen again.

You will definitely be missed, Ali. Many people will miss your coolness and positive views, your smile and laugh, your jollies and jokes. I believe you are in a better place now.

Rest in Peace, Alirezah Ali 1990- 2013