Soul Searching

Soul Searching
 
Soul searching the path
Searching to where it asks
Working its way to Mary
And swerving to find Italy
 
How can it be? How can it be?
Why not choose me?
Waiting but not working
My way to the locality
 
Where can it be? Where can it be?
The place where my heart should be
He said never go back to east
Just go forward to west
 
Where am I? Where am I?
I’m not planning to die.
I just stand staring at faces
Watching passersby walking in fast paces
 
Why not go round and round?
Until I can’t be found
Am I just running?
Or is it escaping?

My say on Typhoon Haiyan

A month has passed when Typhoon Yolanda/ Typhoon Haiyan struck the central part of the Philippines and the provinces in Visayas were completely devastated leaving the people helpless. Lives lost. Houses completely obliterated. Missing loved ones. No food. No water. No electricity. They’ve got nothing but faith and hope and the whole world felt the sense of yearning philanthropy thus, each and every one tries their best to contribute something and give aid to those in need.

We were focused with the current events and every single day their reports were about the updates on how the people were doing. They were tracking how the government responded on the tragic losses of the people in Visayas. It was sad to hear that despite with what happened, there are still people who take advantage of this devastation, and focus on their personal desires. Some blame the government for their slow response while the president blames the local government, who is also affected by the typhoon. It’s depressing that despite all what’s happened they get to blame each other where in fact they should just give help and encourage everyone to stay strong.

Each and every one find ways on how to help, how to contribute and how to alleviate the sadness and losses of the people. From singers, actors, artists and even regular people who work their asses somewhere out there, still wanted to give help and were struck by the disheartening effect of the typhoon. It’s just sad that SOME from the Philippine government doesn’t give what those people, who were affected, deserve. From what happened, I found hope in our humanity that we still care for each other no matter what. Let’s continue giving and spreading love to each other especially that Christmas is coming. Let’s make every day Christmas time.

 

Day 6: Quotes I can relate to (Part 1)

I am so inspired to read from a lot of books recently and I have gathered some of my favorite quotes from different characters of the novels I’ve read.

1. “The trick of it, she told herself, is to be courageous and bold and make a difference. Not change the world exactly, just the bit around you. Go out there with your double-first, your passion and your new Smith Corona electric typewriter and work hard at… something. Change lives through art maybe. Write beautifully. Cherish your friends, stay true to your principles, live passionately and fully and well. Experience new things. Love and be loved if at all possible. Eat sensibly. Stuff like that.”- Emma Morley, One Day by David Nicholls

2. “Ones character is set at an early age, son. The choices you make now will affect you for the rest of your life.” — Chester “Chet” Duncan, Flipped by Wendelin Van Draanen

3. “Without pain, how could we know joy?” — The Fault in Our Stars by John Green

Book/Movie Review: Flipped

Flipped

Title: Flipped

Author: Wendelin Van Draanen

Date Published: October 1, 2001

Rating: 5/5

If I’ve known that this movie has a book, I would’ve read it first before watching it. As I was searching in our hard drive media player for something to watch, out of boredom, my curiosity kicked in. I never had any idea what the movie is all about so I didn’t expect anything from it. I never expected that I would enjoy it. It doesn’t matter if you read the book first or watch the movie first since it’s pretty much the same (mostly). After I watched the movie, I immediately searched for the book and that’s the impact of a good story to a bookworm who is a child at heart.

Wendelin Van Draanen has embodied the different perception of a boy and a girl toward each other’s actions and words. The story is about the evolution of a childhood misunderstanding and ironically the development of the relationship between Julianna Baker and Bryce Loski. It was separately recounted in the views of both the protagonists and although Juli and Bryce are pre-teens, she demonstrated the representation of every girl’s feelings to a boy and vice versa. The differences and the complication of the interaction of these two species were explicitly expressed even in their early years. Their families were also involved with their dealings and thus have highly influenced their perspective between each other, especially the Loski family.

This novel is suitable to all ages and I believe that her aims of audiences are the children and young adults, but anyone who is a child at heart would totally enjoy this novel. Every chapter made me laugh too much and through-out the moment I was reading this, it always makes my day.

I think that this book, as well as, the movie deserves more credit. Although I should say that the production of the movie is not extravagantly made compared with the other Rom-Com movies, I believe that although the story-line is light and simple, it is very entertaining and family oriented. It’s not as complicated as to the other stories we watch or encounter since it’s a simple story which would make every reader and viewer smile, laugh and giggle every once in a while and recap your childhood all over again.

Labor of Love

The second month of the year is about to end and despite my busyness, I would never let this month pass without posting something. This month may be the love month to most of us but since I’m single (and I’m very much happy about it), I still got my family and friends to show my love. Ha! I was supposed to post this last year but since I was preparing something for Christmas, I thought, I’d better surprise them (my friends) first before they find out what it is I gave them.

It was November 2012 when my crafty side had erupted (and I would admit, my boring-ness too). Did you ever feel your hands (being so itchy, well not literally) and your mind (causing all the drive and being so pushy) just wanted to do something new and something special? Well, I felt that. Maybe because of my frustration to try something new and make something out of ordinary, given also with my obsession with Berets and beanies. And then it started…

My first not-so-perfect beret.

My second attempt

When I bought my first crochet hook and yarns, I was delighted. It was a magical moment for me (when I say magical, the moment I saw those crochet hooks in a bundle, there’s a background music playing in my mind. I was amused! Okay, I know I’m over reacting but forgive me for my excitement). Right after I bought it, I can’t wait to get home and make some.

I googled, researched and read about stuffs on how to make a beret/beanie and I stumbled upon these very helpful videos in YouTube. Thanks to Tracey Nguyen and Ms. Teresa of Crochet Geek for showing their wonderful skills and talent in YouTube. Here are their videos: DIY: Patched/Pyramid Beret (Crochet Tutorial) and Crochet Geek: Crochet Puff Stitch Hat

Since I’m still a novice, my first try wasn’t that successful but I didn’t give up. I remembered, it took me 2 days to finish that beret and I was so frustrated! When I finished it, I was flaunting it to my mom and my dad and my brother who keeps on teasing me and laughing at me while I was making it.  He can’t believe I made it and I was able to finish it! Ha! After making my first beret, I’ve got a very good idea: Why not make Berets as Christmas gifts? Well, I did it.

My first not-so-perfect beret.

My first not-so-perfect beret.

For the whole month of November 2012, right after my work, I spent hours making Berets for my friends while I wait for my dad to fetch me. People who pass by me are amused and can’t stop staring (I am loving the attention. Thank you very much!). For that whole month, I was able to finish 8 Berets. I just wasn’t able to take pictures of all of it since the sender of my package was about to leave the country and I’m still not finish with it all so it slipped my mind. Well anyway, I was able to take pictures of my first 2 products. DELIGHT!

In the middle of my crocheting, one day, my father asked me why I made so much of Berets, with different color combinations and different designs, and I told him that I’m making it for my friends as Christmas gifts and guess what he told me. He said: “Oh… Labor of Love” and I love hearing it. Indeed, it is.

… love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you …- Mt 5:44

I am typing this and telling my present situation to ease my hard feelings for this particular person. It may be nonsense to the one reading this, whoever you are, but my purpose is to ease off the burden I’m carrying now just to hear me out. For 3 days I have been on duty with my worst enemy. He doesn’t really know that I was really pissed with him (but maybe he can feel it) because it was our first time to have the same schedule.

If you ask me how I’d describe him physically, he is dark-skinned, pimpled face, quite long black hair and a medium built man. And if you ask me his personality: arrogant, bossy, know-it-all guy, disrespectful, lazy butt, unhygienic (you’d never wanna know) and a big snob. Well yeah, I may have been with him for only 3 days but he made those 3 effing days to be memorable to me as the worst days of my existence! He is a headache to me and my blood pressure is just rising up to my head. I was really pissed with him.

So here’s the story. It all actually started when his duty was supposed to start at 9 in the evening. My duty was only until 9 pm and guess what, he is late! Yeah, for one hour, I was calling him and calling him to come and he was claiming that his duty was supposed to be 10 pm. (That is what they do really, they come late and go home early, so there, I have revealed to you the anomaly in this particular section of our laboratory). When the day of our partnership came, I consulted him to clarify everything regarding on what time they should be coming during night duties and he was claiming that he should come at 10 pm. I was so pissed I was about to cry while arguing with him. I just told him that I would consult everything to our supervisor (which I’m afraid, I still haven’t done) and to hold a meeting regarding our schedule.

First round, done. The whole night I was trying to calm myself down and I just keep on telling myself that 2 more days with him and it would all be over. My second day with him, you may ask, is also devastating. Since he is the most arrogant and bossy guy I’ve ever known in my whole life, well here’s the case, I was in the phone with a very respectful agent from a company and I just asked him if there is a person on duty on one of the sections of the laboratory because the guy on the phone was asking and he was like: “Why? Who is that?” then I asked the guy on the phone who was he and he told me his name and then I told him the name of the guy. Then, he said that Mr. __ is there and he said to transfer him. So while I was talking to the guy so nicely, he was interrupting me and keep on talking and talking and shouting at me to transfer him. I can’t even hear the other guy on the line. HELLO!?!?!? I’m the one holding the phone and I’m the one talking so he should shut his crap and stop interrupting me. He started standing and I felt like he was about to get the phone from my hand so what I did was to stop him with my hand and made a talk-to-my-hand gesture while talking with the other guy on the phone. After that, I tried to calm myself down again.

Third day and third round. Our job is to receive specimens and bring it inside the laboratory and because I am very aware for the last 2 days, that he keeps on pushing the specimens to my side for me to carry it inside the laboratory,  I tried to tell him to bring the current specimens we have received inside the lab because I was the one always bringing it inside. He started arguing again! He told me: “What’s into you? Someone should stay here in the reception area.” So I told him then that I would be the one to stay, was that a big problem? Was that hard for him to carry those plastic bags inside the lab?!?! So there you go ladies and gentlemen, you’ve met one of the most lazy guys in the world. He doesn’t even have spontaneity to help me and bring those specimens inside. If you ask what he only does, well he sits there watching sitcoms and I don’t know what. Sometimes he goes out of the lab and talk with his other friends. No doubt his ass is getting bigger and bigger! Arrgghhh..

Well, so here’s the challenge, since he is going to the place where he came from to have a vacation, he asked for a favor from me. He has a schedule which is in the middle of his vacation and he wants someone to cover for him. My first thought: “NO WAY! I would never cover your duty time.” He was talking his shit out and he was telling me that blah blah blah… we should be supporting each other and everything blah blah blah. Yeah, I understand that he’s becoming this conscience to make me do it but I am saying HELL NO again! Then I went out, while I was walking I talked to God, I asked Him to give me a sign if I should help the guy or not. In this part of my story, believe me, the first thing that came to my mind was Jesus Christ carrying the cross while the Jews were throwing stones to Him. And the phrases: “If someone wanted to slap you in the face, give him the other side of it” and “Forgive and forget”  keeps on appearing in my head, so eventually I said YES. I don’t know if I’m stupid to do it or maybe I’m just too kind or maybe I was possessed by an angel but what I thought about was Jesus Christ. If only I don’t love HIM I wouldn’t do it. You know the worst part? I told him: “You owe me big time!” and he was shocked and told me “Why do I owe you?” and I said “Of course you owe me! If I didn’t agree to cover your schedule who would do it then huh?!?!” And he kept on explaining his shitty side about supporting each other blah blah blah… What I was expecting was he would humble himself (which I forgot that he is the arrogant type of person) and admit that he owes me and a simple thank you would do, REALLY but he just made me more pissed! I feel like blowing up. It didn’t occur to me to not do it, to back out of the deal. Ha! Oh well. Life.

So there, I don’t know if it’s a noble thing to do or just plain stupidity but well I believe in karma and I believe in HIM.

Always have faith. ❤

Can you feel it too?

Frustration. Sadness. Reality hits.

Do you know that feeling? That feeling. I can’t explain the feeling but I feel it inside my heart and sometimes deep down my throat. I don’t know if it’s only me who experiences it but I always feel it. That feeling right after I watch a very nice movie (especially when I watch it in a movie house) or when I finish a really good book, I feel like it’s never gonna end. When it ends, I feel so frustrated and so sad that all I wanna do is go through it and continue everything. I don’t want it to end. It’s like a dream… a very good dream that makes you feel alive and you don’t want to wake. I don’t know if I’m just sourgraping because when reality hits, it was never pleasant for me. I can feel it. That feeling.

When I read a book, I’m excited to know the end of it and I wanna finish it as soon as possible, but when it’s nearly the end of it, I don’t want to end it. Ironic, isn’t it? I don’t know if I make any sense. I don’t know if you understand me but you don’t need to if you don’t want to. I just wanna tell you whoever you are that I don’t wanna feel that anymore. That frustration. I’m not saying I don’t want to watch a good movie or read a very nice book anymore. I do. I’m actually craving for it now especially reading a very good book. I want that clichéness, that passionate kisses, that overrated relationships, that chick flick themed books and movies. It makes me giggle and day-dream but it also makes me sad at the same time because it hits me. In reality, it doesn’t happen. Just like the song of Taylor Swift, “If this was a movie, you’ll be here by now…”. It will never happen to me.

Right now I’m just… Contented. It’s been so long since I read a love story book. And since the ‘Penelope’ movie was just shown in the TV, I felt that feeling again. And I hate it and I also love it. That feeling.